2-n-1

there are some people that never ask for help. there are some people that don't want to burden you with their grief. there are some people that need you most and never tell you so... i am one of those people.

i'm popping tums like acid. little sleep. my nails are bitten off and the sides bleeding. i've had more alcohol than coffee lately. and i feel nauseous when i stand up. really stressful, horrible week. mom's 57th birthday is tomorrow, and she's spending it in the ER. i have a 4 page essay due march 29th by 11.59pm, that i have only started an intro for. it's snowing on march fucking 27th. and i just found out my favorite HB boys will be in south america and asia in june, so they won't be back in OC until about, um, september.

oh and to top off feelings i am trying too hard to suppress:

facebook leaves me this lovely tad bit of information.
thanks assholes.

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Were you happy when you woke up?
not at all.

How is life going for you right now?
not good

When was the last time you went out to dinner?
do drinks and apps count? that was about a week ago.

What are you doing right now?
not what i'm supposed to

What color is your shirt?
white

Who was the last person you talked to?
dad about hiring someone to shut up jose conseco

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a M?
my ex... and Matt would be nice, but like thats gonna happen.

Would you get married if you could right now?
nahhh

What's the best feeling you've ever had?
october 21st 05?/06? - i've never been that happy.

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
dad.

Are you in a good mood?
not at all.

The last person you argued with?
myself.

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
WARM.

Is any part of your body sore?
stomach.

What do you wear more jeans, sweatpants, or slacks?
i'm in my jeans right now... and i'm in bed.

What is the last thing you ate?
Pizza Hut.

Plans for this weekend?
my fingers are crossed that they include alcohol

If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
probably not. i'd be friends with JLo. fuck me.

Where did you sleep last night?
my bed.

What's your biggest regret?
today nothing, in life a few.

Whos your last text from?
myspace telling me jenna left me an amazing comment.

Favorite type of music?
loud and aggressive. or slow and honest.

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
103.

Would you rather watch football or baseball?
depends on the teams, i love both.

Missing someone right now?
too many.

Write something random.
Darren posted a new D&D blog.

Who is your number one person on your friends list?
Megumi.

Do you like dancing?
yessssss.

Name your favorite pair of shoes?
oh. my. god. do you have a favorite vein?

What's something that bothers you?
the question: what's bothering you?

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
always.

What room are you in?
bedroom.

Do you speak another language other than English?
other than like 5 words in spanish, no.

What made you happy today?
seeing Mum awake.

Are you on the computer?
no i'm doing this telepathically. idiot.

Do you like KFC?
it's not in my contract with John Feldmann.

Whats the most important thing about yourself?
nothing.

Where did your last hug take place?
at the ER.

Did you cry today?
yes, a couple of times.

Are you confused?
the story of my life.