does this make me a bad person?

he would say, 'yes'. but then again, he would say yes even if i didn't laugh... which i did... a few times.

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on to a much more serious [but not exactly unrelated] note:
i had an epiphany / breakdown yesterday. things changed. i changed. it's more than just "keeping my options open." and it's more than just "figuring it out." this is my life we are talking about here, and i don't take that lightly. however, it's ok. and i'll be fine. i've learned to put me first. i've learned that i am a good person. i've learned that i'm human. i've learned that i am as pretty as people say i am - and accepting that compliment doesn't mean i'm cocky. i regret lots of things, and the goal here is not to let that happen again. it's the end of an era for me. i'm a big girl now, and big girls have to let go and face reality.

goodbye chris, meg and i will probably see you around. but in the mean time, keep your head up gorgeous.