you know who you are.

Hello, hello, is anyone home?
Hello, hello, just pick up the phone.

I opened up my life to you
I've told you everything I knew
You listened so close
You listened so close when love was just a way out

But you're going deaf now
Yeah you've turned your head around

Hello, hello, is anyone home?
Hello, hello, just pick up the phone.
You'll be sorry to hear, I'm doing fine now.
Sorry to hear, you're without me now.

You blew up the world I built for us
Destroyed our secret universe
Threw out the trust I put in you
Making me feel like I'd been used

And now I'm reminded
That I was just blinded.

Hello, hello, is anyone home?
Hello, hello, just pick up the phone.
You'll be sorry to hear, I'm doing fine now.
Sorry to hear, you're without me now.

I'm doing fine, you'll be alright
Maybe you'll think of me tonight...
You're doing fine, I'll be alright
Just give me time, yeah...

Hello, hello, is anyone home?
Hello, hello, just pick up the phone.
I don't want to hear you're doing fine
Don't wanna hear I'm without you now.

I'm without you now


We are both without you now. It is better this way. Not like you give a shit. I'm trying not to notice things. Things that used to make me smile or giggle, things that now make me roll my eyes or scrunch my eyebrows. I'm learning to change even thinking about them. These relationships that I never even had... maybe because there weren't any chances. Or maybe because those chances ran out. It's ok; it's ok; it's ok. Nothing ever comes easy for me, but that's fine. That's how I learn. See all the men I seem to be tied to have one thing in common -- the road. For some reason, that's who I'm attracted to, since I was what 15? They are always leaving, or I am always leaving. That may be the problem, but I don't care. They aren't the problems with my heart/brain/gut, it's me. And I need space. I can handle long times apart, girls, drunks, trouble, what have you. I'm not jealous, or needy, or dramatic. What I can't handle is being lied to. What I can't handle is putting him a pedestal. No matter how gorgeous, no matter how sweet, no matter how strong - they are all human. They are going to make mistakes, and I can respect that because I make mistakes too... we all do. But I feel I need something now. And I always make something out of nothing, so I think I'm ready for makin another round of this shit haha