dear avenged sevenfold fan,

I’ve been holding this in for awhile...
and I guess because I’ve been getting so excited about seeing them on Monday or because I’ve had a few drinks - but it’s coming out.

And I should say, this is random and it’s not all of you. Most of you are fucking amazing and I can get along with really well. But some of you... are just fucking dumb. And the word ’fan’ probably doesn’t even apply to you...

I realize that the band is not ugly. And that a majority of you are 14 and have your hormones raging. Sometimes its hard to like any artist [or person for that matter] without thinking about them sexually. But Jesus fuckin Christ, if I see one more comment about you wanting Zacky’s fucking babies I am going to throw up like a bulimic in a Vegas buffet.

Anddd speaking of Zacky, I’ll throw Brian in here too, just because they don’t reply to your message doesn’t mean you can get away with calling them a faggot or what have you. Honestly, can you imagine the amount of messages they get on a daily basis? Grow up. It doesn’t mean they hate you. And they sure as hell wouldn’t call you a cunt because you didn’t reply to their fucking MySpace message.

You bitching about how the "preps" all of a sudden started liking the band after Bat Country... really doesn’t make since to us adults. Once you get out of high school, terms like "jock", "prep", etc. are quite juvenile. And you should like that you have something in common with other people. If you and the "preps" help sell out a show, chances are they’re coming back soon.

Oh, and lastly, if I hear you say you "hate" Val, or Michelle, or so on, I’m punching you in the fucking face.


Thank you. Take care of one another.

-Sam.


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[EDIT: March 11th, 2008 @ 2.17am]
Bottom line, you haven’t seen a show if you’ve never seen Avenged Sevenfold live. The last time I saw them, was before City of Evil was released, on Warped Tour. And in like four fucking years, they have came so far. Syn on that guitar is like an audio orgasm. In his own right, he is amazing. And don’t get me started on how cool of motherfuckers the rest of the guys are...

I guess what I’m trying to say is: don’t take them for granted. Don’t let their sex appeal over take their talent. Above anything else, just respect them. It might be flattering for Matt to hear how hot he is, but that’s nothing compared to his singing/songwriting/producing. That’s what you’re remembered for.

That’s what I’ll remember when I’m 40 and I have to prove to my kids that I was cool at some point in my life hahaha

quote of the day:

' Aww, Pariasite has to settle for the fat-TER brother. Double ew. '

hahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha
[i'm sorry josh, but those comments are funn-eh.]

and now on to more news:
hmmm, i think paris banged him too... no wonder he needs a whole stash!

and to the highlight of my day:

woooooooooooooooooo channing. can't wait to see Stop Loss with my girl... maybe she can bring my new BFF too hahaha [more coming after the pix.]





before i talk about meghan... can we talk about those arms? they're so shiny and gorgeous and bada bing. ya know?

ok, so meghan leigh donohue. my BFF. god i hate those internet terms haha [or should i 'LOL']. anyhow, she is positively glowing. not even kidding you. and because of that. i'm positively glowing. she has a crush on this guy she works with. i've heard about him a few times before this but nothing besides how funny he is. all of a sudden, it's how cute he is and how comfortable sher is around him. so after a few weeks, i got to see this boy. his name is keith. he's 19, going to college for business, and his age has nothing to do with it. which is amazing. he's mature and responsible, gets all of his work done ahead of time, respectful, and helpful. that's all i need to know. i'm not counting my chickens before they hatch or anything, but i really hopes this one works out. and then... i'll have another BFF hahaha her fave co-workers and i are thinking about taking a trip to canada [so keither can drink hahaha] which i am obviously stoaked about.

as for me, it's been an amazing year so far. my grades might be the best they've ever been. my family is healthy. theres a free simple plan show this thursday at the mall -- my two things favorite things: shopping and canucks. um, the dear and departed is pretty much the loves of my life now. and josh madden likes my eyebows. and avenged sevenfold in 12 days. life is good.

55 days.

THAT'S ALL.
:)

and i'll do anything to just feel better. any little thing that just feels better.

my resolution this year is to not worry so much about my past or where i'm going. to live and let live. let it be. let go and let god. hell, there's so many i could go on for days. and it hasn't been that hard. but this is only day three. and i'm haunted with some amazing new songs lately... and most of them have to do with my past. and one of my favorite parts of the past is without a doubt - Christopher. maybe i have grown, because normally i'd be crying for these songs but i find myself smiling and singing along. first one is by my favorite artist: dallas green. yup my favorite artist i said it. no one compares right now - but don't get it twisted with my favorite bands. this is a live video of his latest song: waiting from the new album that drops in february. and the second is lenny kravitz's new song: i'll be waiting. i love lenny because he can do it all. whether he's on a track with pharrell and diddy or if he's just on his guitar - i love him either way; rock or rap.




i wish i had lyrics to these two but i just have lenny's. nonetheless, both make me face the issue i have in my heart and that's him. sometimes i feel like i have to let him go like i did benj. but you know what? i don't want to now. and i never wanted to before. i will wait the rest of my life for him. i will go on and love others i'm sure. but he's it for me. i'm 99% sure of it. maybe we will never get our shit together. maybe we will always be leaving. but no matter what, i'm lucky to have been in his presence. i'm lucky that he even glances at me. and he's lucky that i care... and as it's looking right now, that i will always care.

he gets my thoughts and regards, but i'm not focused on him. and that was another part of my resolution. yes, he makes me happy. but there are plenty of other things that make me happy around here. like concerts with my sister and a full-week vacation planned for the first time since i was 10. and ... and this is gonna make me sound whore-y ... but there's other guys that make me happy too. even in the corny innocent ways, there's still a smile on my face when i hit the pillow. so guess what? it does make me feel better. he's not going anywhere. i'm not going anywhere yet. live in just today - oh my god there's another one. this life is not so bad when you just take it one day at a time - ok i have to cut this shit out now.

buh-bye.

peace out 07 - you kinda sucked.


*stolen from Scoeby*
[these are just my opinions. don't like it? i don't care.] :)


Top 5 Bands of 2007:
1. The Dear & Departed [so proud of these guys!]
2. Avenged Sevenfold [amazing album.]
3. Atreyu
4. Black Audio
5. Tiger Army

Top 5 Singers/Rappers of 2007:
1. Jay-Z
2. Kayne
3. Blake Lewis [blame meghan haha]
4. Sara Bareilles
5. Mandy Moore [i really loved her album this year.]

Top 5 Albums of 2007:
1. The Dear & Departed - Something Quite Peculiar
2. Avenged Sevenfold [s/t]
3. Silverstein - Arrivals & Departures
4. Kayne West - Graduation
5. Atreyu - Lead Sails; Paper Anchor

Top 5 Songs of 2007:
1. I Will Love Again - The Dear & Departed
2. 1234 - Feist
3. Back In Your Head - Tegan and Sara
4. A Little Piece of Heaven - Avenged Sevenfold
5. Turn Me On - The Shins

Top 5 Shows of 2007:
1. Taste Of Chaos - Toronto
2. Bleeding Through / Cancer Bats - Toronto
3. Atreyu - Buffalo
4. Silverstein - Rochester
5. Good ... hahahahaha oh, who am I kidding.

Top 5 Movies of 2007:
1. We Own The Night
2. Alpha Dog
3. Primeval
4. Chuck and Larry
5. License to Wed [hahaha shut up]

Top 5 TV Shows of 2007:
1. The Office
2. Prison Break
3. Rob & Big
4. -
5. -

Top 5 Memories of 2007:
1. Toronto/Niagara Falls with Sam & Meg in March
2. Seeing my Hogtown girls again<3 & meeting Alicia in June
3. Our NY Border drug search after the S4C party in April [hahaha horrifying]
4. Painting my room this summer with Megson
5. Seeing Joel again; it was brief but it meant more to me than I'd like to admit.

Top 5 Things that were awesome in 2007:
1. my relationship with pop improving
2. replacements!
3. being legal for the first time in my life.
4. hearing that people admire me - didn't know strangers gave a crap about me haha
5. my cancer bats taking over the world; i'm so happy for them & their success.

Top 5 Things that were bad in 2007:
1. dad almost dying
2. mum's seizures landing her in the ER
3. car getting totaled
4. failing my driver's test - fuck parallel parking
5. american borders

Best purchase in 2007:
- new hard drive

Top 5 New People of 2007:
1. Robbie Dyer
2. Samantha Mooney
3. Scap
4. Kim Van Dam
5. Anthony - :( i miss this one.

Top 5 Things you wish for / look forward to in 2008:
1. CALIFORNIA! with my bestie<3
2. avenged fucking sevenfold - haven't seen them since the summer before city of evil was released
3. seeing the dear and departed; please please please someone let this happen!
4. transferring to RIT
5. a boyfriend ... wow that sounds pathetic, but i'm being honest.

Top 5 Albums you're stoked on for in 2008:
1. city & colour!
2. RANCID
3. the bats
4. h2o
5. chris rich - who knew?!


Overall Rating of 2007 (1-10):
- 5/10 [ horrible year for me. lots of hard times, that outweighed the good :/ only decent part was that there weren't many funerals i had to attend.]

everyday feels like Sunday

i have so much work to do but since my Steelers are on i guess that i'll finish it after the game.
my weekend has been pretty shitty and filled with tea, toilet paper, cough drops, meds and trying to sleep. i got the sniffles late friday night and by saturday morning it turned into a full fledged cold... in fact, it's one of the worst i've had in awhile. i usually don't get sick very often so i'm chalking it up to being stress related [well mostly]. i've had a lot on my plate lately - both good and bad. between my best friend turning 21, starting school, scheduling my driver's test, learning how to parallel park, getting called in for jury duty, getting photo [& lady] supplies, doing laundry, cleaning and cooking, it's a lot to take in. but i love being busy. it keeps me on my toes. even now, i'm still sick but i'm multi-tasking at the same time.
next week is a pretty big week, i have my first photo assignment due and my first business test [not looking forward to that] however, it brightens up during the middle when i get to see atreyu with my best friend on wednesday in buffalo - which i told her i would take her out to dinner after and more than likely i'll end up sleeping over her house, since there are four bands, an hour drive and with dinner, it will probably be about midnight i figure... at least i don't have class until 11 the next morning so i'll be able to sleep in somewhat which i always love. then the next day i will have three hours of photo lab. with this cute new guy. i'm not dropping names, hints or anything here - i'm over it all. i just like looking at him and listening to him sing daughtry; that is all i'm gonna say about that.

i will be 21 in EXACTLY one month; holy shit!
and what am i going to do???? i have no idea.
i suppose i got some time to think about it.